~ pisceanated ~

wondering what i was doing all this time!! well ... I was out of town for my cousin's marriage, couldn't meet my friends, just becuz of a careless mistake, forgot to carry my mobile phone. I regret doing that and thus i wasted 4 days with my cousins :(

well... as they say "watevah happens, happens for good" probably this one didn't have a good side to it, but it happened...

nothing as such goin on here, my city is a boring place to be in. and if u don't have a BF, u are bored all the more, and when u don't have any work to do, then life for sure becomes hell.. preferable get a job, or else lock up your BF in your room till your school starts :P

my city doesn't have anything which a city usually has, no pubs, no dance clubs, no good resorts!! no pubs because my city is in the dry state, so called Gandhiji's state!!

as i mentioned in my previous posts that i work for an organisation called AIESEC, this month as well as the last month i was damn busy handling my work. my portfolio consists of marketing the out-going exchange to the students of the local colleges, preparing them and sending them for the traineeships.

to give a taste to all you guys about my hard work, dedicated efforts and motivated thought processes, i am scoring the highest in the POINT EVALUATION System which is followed by my Local committee to as such recognise and reward the potential member. so this quarter I am sure I will be gettin in some real good stuff for the efforts put in.

people tend to see people as they see themselves, and i am so sure that when i said that i work for an organisation people out there must have thought of me as another junk employee working with an organisation, giving nothing but living on the salary so earned monthly. well, i don't get paid for all the efforts that i put in, i mean i don't get money for the work. thats cuz its a non profit organisation and usually doesn't have money to even finance its daily processes. and thus we guys are members rather than employees. and we live on the LEARNING derived each month from the processes of the Organisation.

it is the best thing that could have happened to me and it has led to a complete change in my personality, thought process, working styles etc etc. it has actually given me THE professional experience i need before i join in with some company sometime later in my life.

i live my life on AIESEC and i think my department is also surviving on my efforts, i have put in lots and i am waiting to see the incentive i get for all this.

Readin, as such, is not my hobby, still I decided to go through the Blogs on Blogsprit.com to check out what people usually put up on such Bloggin Sites.

to my surprise, about 75% of the posts were related to break - ups between a girl and a boy. I was shocked to see the number of couples breakin apart for reasons like geographical distance (me included) to parental presure, career, another boy/girl !! Communication gap - leading amongst all of them.

that is when i decided to talk somethin about my experiences with the COMMUNICATION GAP and the GEOGRAPHICAL DISTANCE part of the whole Break - up !!

the problem is that the whole thing hasn't been solved out yet, well, the communication gap and the distance being the major reason.

and so at this point of time i can't even say whether everythin will be fine or not, and whether i will be able to get him back in my life.. i want it that way !!

career came in my way as wel, whenevah wanted to meet him, he was busy with work, studies, and when he wanted to meet me, i was busy with meetings, studies etc etc... interviews and bloody work!! i guess, all of us who have had these experiences should make sure that the work doesn't come in between the relationships, and that we give a break to the work and meet that one 'special' person in our lives, coz he will not be there the next time u want to meet him.

i have realised though, that career, may be important for the 20 somethings, myself being very ambitious, thought only about my career and my aim in life, forgettin the fact that HE WILL BE WITH ME ONLY FOR THE NEXT ONE YEAR, forgettin the fact that HE FOR SURE WILL GO TO ANOTHER CITY FOR HIS JOB, forgettin the fact that HE NEEDS ME NOW FOR HIS SORROWS, PAINS AND HAPPINESS and that this MAY NOT BE THE CASE TOMORROW. and that when i may need him, he may not heed to the needs and the demands, cuzz he will be too far away from me..

now that his new job has started and that he is enjoyin it more that anythin else in his life, previously it was me, (how i wish i cud kill the JOB and take that place again :() communication has become a problem, no calls, no e-mails, no online chats, and then the distance, though not too large in my case, has come in OUR way..

how i wish, i could go back to him, hug him, and get back all that was lost. but then, who will explain all this to parents, will they ever understand their daughter's love for one of the CUTEST of GUYS on this planet, and future fortune 500 company owner, who gave their DAUGHTER a REASON TO SMILE when she was sad, and lonely, and who has for the moment taken away all her sleep and given her only unhappiness, and sorrows, pains, and tears in the eyes which shined when he was around.

but, i feel the same for him, and this feelin will nevahh go away, who ever comes and goes outta my life, coz he is the ONE, i BELONG to him.

though he doesn't have anyother gal in his life, for the moment, i wish this continues, and that he nevahh finds that GIRL NEXT DOOR. or any other female who can take my place in his HEART, cuzz I want to be the ONE!

its been 5 months now, which other female must have waited so long to hear from a guy those three magical words, which wud bring back all the happy moments back in her life, and the much required smile on her usually cheerful, happy face!

i was nevahh this way before, somethin for sure has happened, which everyone has seen and realised, but don't know what it is.. something which has changed my attitue towards life, towards myself, towards my career, and towards HIM ..

this is wat I call as LOVE !!

and this one for sure will TRIUMPH all thru the rough track and WIN the GAME OF LIFE ..

i have decided to be more active on the bloggin front, though i am not too good with it !! but will still try and make sure that it becomes a part of my life.

today, was as such a slurry day - he he ... bad words to describe bad days ..
didn't have much to do, preparing for my cousin's marriage, in Jaipur, a chance to meet all my friends there, once again after almost 3 months, and my other cousins, after a year.

well... i am more interested in meetin my friends than my cousins. somehow i don't gel with my cousins! have to work on that one.

AIESEC in India has a chapter in jaipur, and so I have many friends down there approx 10 - 15 good ones, and about 25 - 30 "hi - hello" types. those guys are fun to be with, i really enjoy my time with them there.

those were the days, when we used to sit and chat, throughout the day, endless moments, not a single minute went by without talkin about somethin or the other. best of friends, best of moments, which will be cherished by me throughout my life, probably after my death as well, if dead people do have a 'life after death'.

my cousins, so many of them, all of them are older than me, pretty boring types, tried to talk to them, but somehow it never happens. they look at life with a different perspective than me, and somehow i also find them very very narrow - minded. Not my types - to be precise.

Lets c how it is this time when i meet them, hopin for better times, if not the BEST.